Dear Friends,

Yury Rockit's astrological posts all year building up to our most recent Capricorn Moon inspired me to turn our new co-written Chronic Kidney Disease EBook into an audiobook sooner than later. I'm a Capricorn, and I'm a full-fledged lunatic, meaning I love "la luna," or all things MOON.   Releasing the audio recording at this time seems the most fitting because Yury spoke of how the astrological forces around us open and affect our throat chakras now more than at any other time this calendar year, so I recorded now.  Since my Capricorn monumental Christmas birthday proved traumatic and full of grief, it was quite scary for me to break my silence with you on July 1.  And, since my Thai nephrologist’s wife suggested sharing my story to help others with the latest on this condition now affecting so many of us, my main Nephrologist and I both embraced her suggestion to be a one-of-a-kind first book of its kind for many reasons.  We combine both Western and Eastern research on topics including sodium, blood pressure, stress management and, of course, kidney disease..

You also most probably know me better than most on the socials, so you know that i’ve never been able to memorize pre-choreographed programs and do the same thing of ANY thing twice. This is why I trained in, but NEVER taught, programs like Water In Motion, Les Mills, RiPPED, and Zumba.   I just can’t believe that true teaching involves taking the script in my head and making the people in front of me follow it instead of making a script in my head on the spot that’s tailored for the people in front of me, right?

Be that as it may, I recorded my co-written book.  You'll hear me struggling through the doctor’s technical parts as I begged him to record his sections, but he’s just too busy.  The result you get, therefore, is authentic Lawrence stumbling and spelling through the terms that I still can't say for the life of me like " finerenone" and "glomerular." 🤨 As for my own part, I just had to embellish every chapter as I read with backstory, anecdotes, and spilling more T on a very private side of Lawrence, just as in the same way I want to change a pre-choreographed program on the spot.  I'm sure it's all from some deep flaw in my personality.

To those (many) of you who have asked to join the support group I created for CKD, please know with love I’m just keeping you out of it if you answer the questions that you do NOT have CKD or do NOT provide caregiving for anyone who does.  I want to keep this new group small and clear for us to be candid with each other, especially because sometimes sharing involves placing doctors’ views against each other and other very personal stories.

As often happens in life, when we think we’ll hear from some "faithful" people with perhaps some support, we only face disappointment with their silence.  Alternatively, a few surprises came my way from those of you who expressed your own kidney issues and symptoms as well, building our solidarity.  And then there were the bizarre messages ranging from: "Oh we know exactly how you feel with Biskit leaving because we lost our guinea pig" to "thank God it was just a dog and you didn't lose a family member."  🤬🥹🥵 

To those (many) of you who have reached out expressing condolences for grief over Biskit, this author can’t muster anything more coherent and authentic to say than “thank you.”  My emotions are raw.  Many of you know that Biskit wasn’t a dog waiting at home for 11 years, but we were inseparable for that time 24 hours a day, something that even parents of children and married couples can’t ever understand.  He never missed a mass in 11 years, and accompanied me to every dental visit, chiropractic adjustment, plane, train, bus, taxi, submarine, cruise, and helicopter travel, video shoot, book signing, keynote addresses onstage, orphanage and hospital coma trauma units as a working dog, and lived as my soul dog and lifeline to many things I otherwise couldn't with my sight and hearing issues.

Thank you for supporting my book.  You don’t have CKD?  I get it.  Please remember my book to those you know who may — for many reasons — need to lower blood pressure, control salt intake, justify drinking alcohol reasonably, and understand the truth about protein levels for all humans, all backed by the latest in both Western and Eastern research.  

For those of you who prefer just to listen, or just to ebook read, or both, options all exist here, with special prices for those of you wanting to listen who already purchased the EBook, and a special bundle as well.  If you want to get the book as a gift for someone, just tell me and I'll send a personal email from me to that recipient with your best wishes as well: lawrence@findlawrence.com.  

And, to those of you adamant about supporting me -- but simultaneously adamant about holding out for a snail mail book, please know that these will be available in late fall in limited quantities, will be quite pricey to cover all costs (about 29.99 USD), and won't be sent signed (because then you'd have DOUBLE-shipping: from the publisher to me and then again on to you somewhere in the world).  Those of you with some sound wisdom in  business  understand we just can't undertake any endeavor where we will lose money from the start.    I show you this photo of me with our new book to display that, yes, Victoria, there IS a printed copy of the book somewhere in the world. 😶

Remember that Dr. Suwasin U and I are still supporting our charities of choice with this book:

As always, half of the proceeds generated from this book support my charity, the Sisters of Saint Joseph on the East Coast of the USA, and the other half supports Dr. Udomkarnjananun's workplace: the King Chulalongkorn Memorial Hospital, under The Thai Red Cross Society, and the Faculty of Medicine, Chulalongkorn University in Bangkok, Thailand.

Thank you very much for reading all of this. 

And to those few of you still not understanding the distancing of intense grief-loss, I offer you this after someone explained to me that it's better to NOT explain absence than attempt to use words that NOBODY could understand anyway (I did NOT previously share this clip):

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP86HxMHj/

And, after all of this, if you're STILL supporting me, my appreciation and gratitude are now deeper than ever.  😍

Peace, In!

Lawrence